The Phantom Blogger

Yes...apparently there is a phantom blogger who randomly appears and writes on my blog only to disappear again for days and yes, even months at a time. Ok...so that's not exactly true. Fact is - most of the time I have these great thoughts that I want to blog but I'm in the middle of being psycho mom er...um...I mean psuper mom. ha. At any rate by the time I can actually sit down and put the thoughts into words - they're gone. Like the wind. It's also highly possible that the forgetfulness has everything to do with me being pregnant. Which reminds me yet again about what I DON'T like about being pregnant....everything. It's not so bad I guess. Now that I'm finishing up my fourth month and the constant nausea is starting to let up I can faintly see the light at the end of the tunnel. I have been existing on dry cheerios and orange gatorade. yum. I am anxiously awaiting the day when food will have appeal again. I firmly believe that if men had to go thru this - all procreation would cease and the human race would die out. But as women we have this insane ability to promptly forget the numerous ills of pregnancy, the fatigue, the aches and pains, and don't even get me started on labor. We see that little face and we're ready to do it all again. Amazing or insane? A little of both I think.

This summer is gearing up to be a busy one - and I'm thoroughly looking forward to it. I have found since Mom's death that I look at things so much closer. Time is so precious because we don't know how long we've got. I want to appreciate the little things. And encourage you to do the same. Don't get so caught up in life that you forget to live it. It is so very easy to do and for all of my pregnancy complaints - I am enjoying this time in my life immensely! The only thing I would change would be to SLOW it down. Each day is such a blessing, even the hard ones. I love being a mother - each new phase of childhood that we grow through. Every time Ava comes out with something outrageous. Her latest, "Mom! That bee is minding MY business!" I love being a wife to my amazing husband.

The kids are in such a hurry to grow up - and I remember being there - now I just want to hold onto these times. My daughter is only going to be 3 once. My son, already turning into such a little man, will grow up all too quickly. Have I mentioned that pregnancy makes you introspective? haha.

Enjoy this time in your life - where you are, whatever you're doing. It goes by way to fast. That saying really is true - Dance like no one is watching. Laugh like no one is listening. Love like you've never been hurt. Let go of your past hurts, your regrets. The bad times pass although sometimes very slowly, the good times are gone before you know it. So hug more, love more and laugh more! Life is awesome!